Fuck amerikkka!

And I don’t mean fuck, like that, romp in the bushes, or the, sensual play in the bedroom, or that, BDSM-kink fetish I have for, getting flogged in a, dark, and, dank, back corner of the basement of a downtown nightclub, in the middle of the night, by a woman I don’t know… dressed in leather straps, her nipples poking through, who is fulfilling her, FUCK!, of being powerful, dominant, and… in control, skipping all the rituals of, dating and marriage, rejecting all the gender norms and expectations of submissiveness, and being her full self, sexy and sexual in allllllllllll her, splendor; 

that is, not the “fuck” I mean…

I mean fuck, like, fuck off, like, fuck you, like, fuck this shit god damn it, like, fuck everything right now, I hate this place, what it stands for, who runs it, and how it’s run, like, fuck this job they can take their paycheck and shove it up their fuckin ass, I mean, fuck like, a middle finger in I-5 traffic during rush hour on a late Friday afternoon at the I-90 interchange when somebody cuts you off, and then, slams on their breaks because they wouldn’t get out of their fuckin phone and off of tiktok long enough to actually see what the fuck is going on in front of them // lost in FOMO, their fear of missing out on something other than this fucked up life they are living, in this fucked up place, being run by these fucked up people, heading back to a place they don’t feel is their fuckin home because at any moment it can be stripped from their grasp if their credit slips three more fuckin points, as the banks shift the rates and the treasury inflates making the dollar, that is, the value of an hour of our labor worth even less than it was the day before / can’t afford the rent or the mortgage, this is not my home kind of home, like, Fuck-My-Life… 

I mean, the kind of fuck, that has, 400 years of resignation and anger baked into the foundation forming the sound waves quaking in the diaphragm of frustration / the, waking of, a, sleeping titan bellowing a death to patience, with the gods / I mean, that kind of fuck, that can only come, after a partner of five years who comes to a, spiritual revelation, and has a, rift in her consciousness, about the way she has been cheating on me for our whole relationship with my, so-called friends, and we had all been breaking bread together the whole time, while they were laughing in my face, and, behind my back / as the, realization of, disloyalty and, betrayal, and how I no longer even know how to, trust, myself, because the person I trusted the most in this world, I never even fuckin knew / who had lied to me the whole way through, my judgment was a mess, and my spirit was ruined… 

I mean, that kind of FUCK / when I say…

Fuck amerikkka with three K’s 

fuck the Donald trurmps, fuck the joe bidens, fuck the ann davisons, and fuck police brutality / fuck the chief diazes, fuck the sarah nelsons, fuck the bruce harrells, and fuck the sweeps that have now become part of our reality / there were 2,827 just in 20-23, alone… stop harrelling the people toward destruction and police washing the climate, the reductionism is sick / fuck raiding the people’s money won for social programming and services / fuck the, drone strikes, fuck, paying for genocides, and fuck, corporate greed so thick it gentrifies… fuck that, lies are, pandered as truth, and fuck that, history books are, more fantasy than, cartoons / fuck that the, only good resistance, is one that is never heard, seen, smelled or otherwise, observed / fuck the, sick twisting of Dr King’s DREAM and his life, like, he was a / likeable guy / that either, Nixon, Johnson, Kennedy, Eisenhower, Connor, Clark, the white clergy, the Wooslworth owner, the fire department, or, even most of society ever liked or appreciated his methods of disruption of the negative peace to get to the positive tension of a true peace / yeah, that guy / he wasn’t liked / but they pander a story to us to make a prescription, and to, try to, shape our resistance, into, something benign / but they cannot just outright admit that they deny, and disregard the King, because, that would unveil too much of their lie / their revisionism and their redactions, their dissatisfaction, that they had to relinquish some of their power, to, keep power, that they had to get a little more PC, politically correct, with the ,times, to get elected and to remain in office, changing their words to be just a little more color, and gender, blind / but the impact is the same this time, as it was, the last time, on, this line, and on, that line / and fuck how they tried to sell us on the idea, that, racism was dead, because one, quote-unquote, “black president,” was elected / completely missing the tea party, the maga mania, rush Limbaugh, steve bannon, the proud boys, the Zionists…  the alt—right / control-alt-delete / the world is still replete with racists / fuck that, democrats and republicans have different faces, they, look the same on measure, and that nothing great has come because of them / please define great for me, because, it’s not something I have ever attributed to this country / case in point / white guy convicted on 34 counts of felony, and still running for president, walking free / but let me j-walk across the street… watch the cops steal the tent of a person just trying to sleep / the blatant disregard for asylum seekers and refugees… King County owning a vacant econolodge, but, won’t open it, to provide some sense of, security, to the families, camping in Kent who came here thinking, they might escape, atrocity / climate change just turned up the heat, only got 8,000 units to accommodate the over 53,000 people in the street / and the answer Seattle city council has / is, more police / yeah…

fuck amerikkka, 

and, fuck a culture that makes us hate ourselves and that makes us hate each other

Fuck, white-washed beauty standards, fuck, tongue straightened news casters, fuck, reliance upon the written word, this, credential based society that advances who and when they want, it’s absurd… fuck the, structural abandonment so many of our communities have suffered, being marginalized and pushed to the side, disenfranchised, red-lined to gentrified, hyper-policed, over-surveilled, three-strikes, super predator stigmatized, grown man from age 5, aka Tamir Rice, beat down, locked up, gunned down, shutout, followed round, never believed, always guilty, denied… credit, jobs, housing, adequate education… fuck the media, the news, the entertainment industry, and the tropes that form and sustain the narrative that dark and black are scary and evil and not to be trusted, fuck the telling of  our stories like they begun with slave ships, shackles, and leather whips, fuck that, sheroes, theyroes, and heroes of our ethnicities are overlooked and missed and that the ones they do honor are watered down to fit their scripts, fuck how, they try to teach us that, our so-called liberation was a, gift, not self-proclamations and ardent resistance, fuck the, lies, and fuck, the systematic devaluation of our lives //

Fuck how all this brainwashing plays itself out in our minds, so that there is no beginning, no end, no future, no power, no aspirations outside of what has been prescribed / Fuck that after so much denial and repression that they act surprised there is such rampant depression and that it’s being addressed with illicit drug usage to disperse the woes of those stretched and stressed beyond measure, and fuck that they blame us for the bootstraps they sowed into our neighborhoods, we ain’t got no gun factories, and if there were meaningful well-paying jobs and the rents weren’t sky high, sellin dope poisoning our own people wouldn’t seem a viable option / fuck that they funneled crack and heroin into our neighborhoods so that our peoples would collide and die, and fuck how they villainized us for the shit they created, thus cheapening our lives, to the point that two kids raised on the same blocks, no poppy fields and owning no gun shops, can pull out a gun and shoot the other dead………..

The indoctrination has been so effective that we now not only self-indoctrinate, but also perpetuate the self-hatred, and do the work of control and extermination for them, and that the system is designed so that doing this also justifies the continued enslavement of our people.

Fuck amerikka…