Being in love and in a relationship is not always easy, sometimes it requires work and an active investment into a future we both want to share. Soemtimes, when doubt clouds that future it is necessary to remember the beauty that was the gravity that brought us to each other and still binds us toghether to see the magnificence, which envelops us.
I love you. And I hope I never forget what drew us together ever agan.
What began as a crush, became a love, deeper than the heavens above
Still leaves me in awe, when thinkin on, how we’d got begun
One of the cutest couples, ruffles, under my shirt, goose bumps and cuddles
A movie pictured paradise, every moment wrapped in doubles
Replayin in my brain, cuz I couldn’t believe what I was seeing
Couldn’t believe my feelings being, right through the ceiling, stolen -freeing
Supposed to be, hittin books, not catchin looks, or sneaking peeks, and playing crooks
Had, grades to get, and papers due, no time for nooks
But couldn’t really escape, the fate, the gates of my heart were bound to break
And they crumbled under ya touch, impatiently, longing, to no longer wait
So late one night, studied right, up to the closing time
On that cafe grind, stretchin our minds, around science and primes
Till it was time to go, but oh no, neither one of us wanted home
And by a stroke of luck, we tucked in a cove, along the way that we drove
When, all the crushing, secret loving, and emotions never spoke
Came to the surface, and into focus, then, into my heart you dove
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
What caught my eye, and drove me wild, running my mind, a million miles
Filling my thoughts, with the warmest smiles, till nothing else was worth my whiles
Was the way you stood so confidant, powerful and competent
Unstoppable, intelligent, embodiment of accomplishment,
With a will to speak, to fight for the weak, not so meek just turning cheeks
But humble and vulnerable, even only just with me
Which let me know, I meant something, to you, and for me that was everything
Enough to shatter my ego walls of isolating tyranny
& The way you challenged the social norms, of what it meant to be woman
And how a man was to interact, to respect her fluid movement
With the grace enough, to let me falter, and alter my conclusions
To help me grow, to a man, who is, willing to shed confusions
Igniting my desires, reciprocating fires of passions, alive
Pregnant with our hopes and dreams, of what our lives, could be like
A world I never thought possible came into light
And MyLove, that’s how your wonderful aura filled my eyes
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
Nothing, worthwhile comes easy, and love, is no exception
The same qualities I love, give rise, to insurrection
Confidant, powerful, dominant and strong
Qualities I’d never sacrifice no matter what went wrong
But those too are characteristics that I also possess
And I’m sure like for me, they’re what brought you to my caress
And now after two and a half years they have placed us under duress
Polarized us, and put our meridians to the test
A test of might, a test of will, a test of skill in argument
That questions all we’ve ever loved, and it seems that there’s no resolving it
Because in love there’s compromise, there’s truth within the lies
There’s things we seek to hide, and there’s things we try to find
Like the glint in our partner’s eyes when they walk into the room
Just want to know that they’re ok, because that is what we do
But life, is so hard, and fast, taxing upon the best we have
That it becomes easy to forget we’ve shared the best times we’ve ever had
Yet in your eyes and in your words I feel your want to work together
I feel the same grace I’ve always felt since we’ve known each other
I feel the same, mine comes with shame because I’ve hurt my lover
Lost hold of what you meant to me, meaning I had to rediscover
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
Never forget the meaning of,
The heart and the soul of the one that you love
Times will come that push and shove
Beggin the question enough is enough
But, never forget the meaning of
The heart and the soul of the one that you love,
one that you love, one that you love, one that you love
You lied to me
You told me, that it was, just, going to be a ride, on your bike
Now, I am not upset that you lied to me; looking back…
But you still lied to me
If you would have told me then, when it was in the middle of winter, raining, icy-cold and too late to catch a bus home
because we stayed out all night studying,
that I was about to sign up for the love of my life, the greatest partner I would ever have, some of the most emotional fights and passionate nights…
Honestly,
I probably would have run for the hills half-naked and risked the frostbite crossing over Seattle to get home walking for hours in the rain, snow, slush crap that we get here, to get away from your bike
Which was the fastest way home, and I had class the next morning,
Love, terrifies me,
and back then I didn’t what a thing to do with it
Not even a nice little romp in the sheets, with no strings attached
because I am a Pinocchio with big dreams and a heart worn on my sleeves, and strings that reach from my most intimates, dangling behind me, blowing in the wind getting caught in everything I cannot detach my heart from
And I’m sorry, I must be failing as a man, but I just cannot detach my heart from my intimate connection with another human being
There is no, just romping, in the sheets for me
And I had been through the ringer with this whole love thing, had my heart torn out, stomped on and spit on, laughed at, disregarded, burned, pushed aside, forgotten…
And I had failed those who loved me, violated trusts, got too busy in saving the world to remember she needed me too, until she left me because she wasn’t receiving the attention and affection she needed me too
I was not a good lover and love terrified me
More importantly though, I already loved you and did not want to accept that as a reality
But I thought, it’s just a ride on your bike, and its cold outside, shes the homie, my study buddy
Never in a million years would I have ever thought that you were crushing on me
Funny thing is, you were testing me to see if I could check my male privilege, my patriarchal tendencies, and jump on the back of a bike being driven by a woman
Fuck a patriarchy, you are a boss, a king, always have been and always will be
and if men were so good at running things, just because they are men, then why do we have so much Hell in the world today with all its attendant sufferings?
Just saying…
You stuffed this helmet on my head, condensing and smashing all of the ego that surrounds my better nature, which blocks me from the sunlight of the spirit of who I was born to be, and you knocked me back down to size, which is the true definition of humility,
but you were also trying to save my life in the event of the unlikely circumstance of a crash
And as hard as I tried to fight it, not because I was afraid of a woman being in control, but rather, because I was afraid to lose control over my affection for you; I hesitated climbing onto your bike
And you turned around, in that wonderful way you always do, annoyed as shit because I am not moving fast enough for you, unaware of what was really running through my mind at the time
How am I going to hold on to her and not fall madly in love with her?
she will know, and I will be exposed!
And you yelled at me “Get On!”
As I climbed onto your bike and slid into the seat, wrapping my arms around you, all my fear melted away and I realized that there was in place on the world, and no person that I wanted be with more than you in that moment, right there.
Thank you for lying to me, sometimes that’s just what we need to bring us to where we belong
and it brought me to you, MyHeart, I love you.
When we first met I was drawn to you like a wave to the beach, and with each opportunity that presented itself, I was compelled to meet and join with you.
And after all this time, this– beautiful, amazing, life changing, powerful, passionate–time, I am still drawn to you like the moon to the sun, and I can do naught but let your warmth wash over me, your light eradiate me and illuminate my being, it is your essence which causes me to vibrantly shine throughout the evening sky.
You are my soul mate, and although you do not make me whole, for I was complete before you lighted within my sight, you nonetheless, enhance each and every one of my fibers, nay, every molecule of my being vibrates at a higher rate, to the point that I live on a new plane of existence with you, you revitalize and rejuvenate and are who make my life worth living.
You are the love of my life and I would never trade one microscopic moment for anything else, I love you.
And even though we an fly, sometimes it’s just nice to enjoy the moment and slow life down a bit, soaking in a good conversation on community transit.
I love you more than words can describe,
all I truly know is that my life would be empty without you.
Now that may sound cliche, and you may be like my life will go on regardless, but I am saying that, that life is not one that I want to attempt to live because you have become so much of who I am that I can no longer think of myself without also thinking of you.
I know that our paths have taken us in two different physical directions, and for now that is across this continent, and soon there will be oceans and continents, but I am here to tell you that no physical obstacle will ever be a barrier between us because each passing moment you do not but become more part of me.
You are my heart, a dream I never hoped to find, and I will orbit you like a planet drawn to your gravity until the day, if it should ever come, that you push me away. This distance, although it may be vast, has done nothing but draw me closer to you as I look for your eternal light to warm my soul and guide my way.
I love you more than words can describe,
but each day I shall fail miserably in my attempt to share with you just how much you mean to me.
Forever yours,
Michael
loving the thought of you
you who I do not know
loving the struggle
the thorn
the page torn
the heart scorn
loving the message I hear not
the waking moments of what if
the distant echo of your breath
your whisper
my ear
loving the thought of you near
the dream awake
so crisp I smell your hair
so ripe I spell your name
a thousand times in the air
over long breaths
so sweet
that all my cares melt right into your presence
and you just make me smile
a child whose met his best friend
loving the thought of you
Renaissance Revolutionary 